The last few days ....

9 months passed by ... n it really passed by fast i would say. I always believed, it would be the best phase of my life ... well i would not say I have been dissappointed. It was ROCKING!!
Huh ... now that I have come to the end of it, i have some mixed feelings - some words of thanks, some tears to shed for no great reasons (hormonal upheavals maybe!), some dissapointments and a lot of other things. And I do not have the slightest idea where to start from - 9 months are a long period you see. So don't mind my unorganized and jumping n hopping way of expressing things- but this feeling would never ever come back again I know. I wanted to treasure it for a lifetime to read it 10 years later and smile. Guess wat - my baby's coming!!
It all started with a feeling of emptiness in life - a feeling of going to the next stage, of wanting to reconnect with my childhood, of having the freedom, of having something i could say is mine, to love n play with, to come back to a warm home and waiting eyes striving to be with me only ... n so much more. I wanted a baby.
They say - "a woman becomes a mother when she conceives" - wasnt completely true in my case honestly. I could not relate to it at the first go until i heard the heartbeats one day- magical it was in the ultrasound test ... no wonder I badly missed Muksit.
One thing which is worth mentioning is, I have never been so pampered in life before. Where do I start with about the whole pampering details I have no idea about. But it was definitely special. Not only at home, but the whole world put me on some different world just because I was carrying. I will never forget what Vishal did for me all this while. Should I start with all the chach he got for me .. listening to all my tantrums n bearing them, bringing me books which i would never read ... oh I cant thank him enough. Thank you for all the love, attention and friendship I have been gifted with from you - and not to forget all the CHOCO LAVA!!! I really really appreciate your affection for Ruhi (who's not gonna b a girl i guess). You are an incredible dost.
Throughout this somebody who actually beared all my shoutings among a lot of others and whom i could manage to scare the shit out was SUNIDHI. Man, you were actually scared of me werent u? But baby, I could not do it with anybody else and u know it so so well. Some crazy moments we have shared during this time is unforgettable honey. Your terrace was a total bliss and wat a vent out, the pajama party and torned Tshirts - i still dn know how I managed to b so crazy in pics without a single drop of alcohol ... lol ... your birthday party - i thought it would be such a disaster specially with all that we have been going through those days ...but we surely ended up with a blast darling. And yeah, I agree i looked hotter than u on ur birthday with my short dress and everybody was cheering me up. Bloody attention freak that you are made us order a cake for u to cut... as if I dint know u. And yeah that guy behind that u were eyeing ... oh he danced so well. You have been there always - cant forget the fact that you did not go to any of your new year bash to be wth me, the parantha and aloo ki sabzee that you got for us in the hospital, bearing all my yelling and asking me to calm down - u r a complete dumb to think that not calming down will give me labor pain. I dont want to thank u for being such a great support and listening to the weepy me and happy me. I still dont know how u feel when u touch my belly feeling my baby ... but my baby surely loves u bebo ...
Dimpi - I have no words when it comes to her. She has been my strength all throughout. I cried with her, i laughed with her n i fought with her. Had she been not there i dont think i could have managed it so far. My almighty knows how much I mean that. God bless her with all happiness. I would only pray that I can be with her during her pregnancy and do the least that she has done for me. I owe you a lifetime sis - thank u.
Muksit - It could not have been possible without u baby. Well biologically and emotionally as well. You and I, think that it could have been a better situation. But maybe I have never been able to tell you how much i love u for loving me and for being there. You have seen me grow from a girl to a woman and now to a mommy. And we have grown together. I know you missed out on a lot of things, of the times that I could spend with kiddo to feeling his kicks .... not to mention that I missed you in every step. I only wish u took my cravings a bit more seriously. But deep in hearts i know u r what you are for me ... Thank u for loving me for who I am. I want to see u grow to a dad too.
He says - I m sad today because i would lose the copyright of exclusively mine tag for kiddo. Well, true it is .. I will miss u baby. I am waiting and very eagerly waiting for you sweetheart .. my bundle of joy.