my questions again ...

My mind at the moment is flooded with loads of questions.... questions to myself..i only wish there could have been google.com to answer them. This happens very rarely that I keep asking me questions but the reason is always the same without fail. This might be because the reason is the most important thing in life since the time its existence. Where did i go wrong this time. Opposites attract they say, but surely are times when they repel which proves all laws wrong. I'm always at fix analyzing what's the right way to react to these. Am I rightin sometimes doing what I feel like? Is there something in wanting to do this... cause it makes me happy. That's what I am people and I love it.
I am at the moment not liking the after effects... maybe because of yesterday tough I know you would deny it ... or maybe not. But this makes me feel very strongly that I would never do this again... which is not what I believe in. But i need peace, smiles around me all the time.. atleast when we are in a position to.

Faith

To some it might be just a word ... n sound of some alphabets and vowels tied together. To me it did....Unaware of the depth and meaning of faith u tend to go ways which we often do not realize the consequences.It made me stand nowhere... the future blurts out and the pain in the belly is way to unbearable. What's worst is, it might be forgived for sure but what leaves behind is a big scare and a fear for your entire life. Sorry just does not seem to be the word here .... its too small, tears do not fill in the wound at all, regrets ... well...only thing that i have after all that is regretting every moment and realizing the ugliness in me to have done something like that...The believe that it will never happen is something so distanced to u and that hurts the most... May the belief stay ....

The defined "Love" day

I have been wondering since the time I knew, what is the "valentines day" all about. Or to be more precise, why is the Valentine's day. I definitely respect the feelings of humans around to have a special way of telling their loved ones in this extra special day "I love you" Honestly, for me this day has never been special, not when I was in my first love, my matured, understanding love affair and not when I knew I'm actually in love and married the person. Unromantic eh?? Well if that defines it then be it.
Surprisingly expressing one's love and friendship is something I have always believe is so important. For this, i would however do it everyday, every moment instead waiting for a special day to celebrate or confess my love or propose. I may not be the most romantic person on earth, but I surely love romance. I honestly believe that "love keeps you alive" n will always do. This wonderful feeling of being love and owned by somebody you live for is just so amazing... Love makes you feel at the top of the world. Being a little selfish I would say, it brings back the glow in your skin. lol..
To the one I love ---
I wouldn't need a special day to say how much you mean to me... because everyday is made so special that I realize how much in love i am with you. Like my favourite song says "If never tomorrow never comes, I wouldn't want to let it go unsaid that you mean the world to me". Thank you for being there for me, my friend, my guide... my Valentine every day. You touched my heart with your love, you touched my soul with your presence.