my questions again ...

My mind at the moment is flooded with loads of questions.... questions to myself..i only wish there could have been google.com to answer them. This happens very rarely that I keep asking me questions but the reason is always the same without fail. This might be because the reason is the most important thing in life since the time its existence. Where did i go wrong this time. Opposites attract they say, but surely are times when they repel which proves all laws wrong. I'm always at fix analyzing what's the right way to react to these. Am I rightin sometimes doing what I feel like? Is there something in wanting to do this... cause it makes me happy. That's what I am people and I love it.
I am at the moment not liking the after effects... maybe because of yesterday tough I know you would deny it ... or maybe not. But this makes me feel very strongly that I would never do this again... which is not what I believe in. But i need peace, smiles around me all the time.. atleast when we are in a position to.